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Thursday, June 21st, 2007


Subject:i frustrate me
Time:03:04 pm.
Ai yi yi. I guess it's been a while since I've written here. I need to write more often.

Lately, there doesn't seem to be enough time in the day to do everything I WANT to do. I'm quite sure I'm not alone in that feeling. But my problem is worse than that. These anti-seizure drugs just make me exhausted. Even when I have time, I'm too tired to do anything. I have a million books to read, and I don't have the energy to read a frickin book! All I want to do when I have free time is sleep! Some nights, I actually endeavor to have a social life and hang out with my friends...and then I'm even more tired.
What, am I not supposed to have a social life and hang out with friends cause I was cursed with these stupid seizures and have to take these shitty pills? I'm only 35. I'm not dead yet. I am essentially a homebody and love to stay home alone and just watch TV, but hey, occasionally, I actually like to spend time with my friends. I have some of the best friends I've ever had, and I'm not going to roll over and play dead. But it's frustrating cause I'm tired all the time. I usually get from 8-12 hours of sleep, and yet I'm STILL sleepy all the time. It's a good thing I'm not dating right now, cause guys don't really like to hear, "Not tonight, honey, I'm really tired.". Will any guy ever be understanding of my med situation? Not only am I always tired due to the seizure meds, but I have NO drive due to the Prozac I have to take to counter balance the depressive effects of the anti-seizure meds. What guy wants a girl who never wants sex? It's not exactly that I never want it, it's just that I'd be unlikely to instigate it. And when I do have it, it's uncomfortable enough for me to be like, "Hurry up!". And once a night is plenty for me. I'm not a go all night kind of girl. I would choose sleep over sex ANY day. How sad is that? I'm doomed to a life alone, because since guys are pretty much sex fiends, there ain't one who's gonna be patient and understanding with me.
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Monday, December 25th, 2006


Subject:My newest project
Time:09:51 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
I could really use my LJ friends passing this along....if any of you are good at letter writing, it would be great if multiple people wrote to major magazines (PEOPLE, Cosmo, STAR, etc.) telling them about this, asking them to do an article on it, that would be the best!

Here's my new project....it's in a VERY basic phase. Videos will be added eventually, bells & whistles (I hope), a photo album, etc. This was done by a friend for free. There are even some errors up there right now. So keep all that in mind.

Please know I don't expect a donation. What WOULD be a HUGE help, though, is you guys telling everyone you know. ESPECIALLY people with money to spare, people who like to donate to worthy causes! Email everyone you know, especially in other parts of the country. Encourage them to buy a Cassie item--t-shirt, hat, bag, license plate frame, etc.--to publicize my site, & it would be great if you did, too. There's a shirt that's only $11. Buttons & stickers are pretty cheap. Yes, I want donations to the cause, but I also am hoping for immense publicity, too. It's kinda my last ditch effort to make something of my life & career. I actually think it might work, but definitely need to get the word out! Spread it around to all your peeps in your neck of the woods, & anyone else you know across the country & world! The only way this site will work & serve it's purpose is by word of mouth. Make the site address part of your signature when you send out emails (if your email program allows that!). I purposely made the site addy really easy to remember.

www.sharingadream.com

I appreciate--and will never forget--any & all help! :-)
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Monday, October 16th, 2006


Time:09:01 pm.
The Harris Hot House chili cook-off was a blast!

My first time ever camping out in a tent! Was sooo much fun, until the drunks awakened me at 12:30am, & then again at 3:30am (Stacy="SIT DOWN AND STUDY!!!!!"). Hee-hee. It was still a blast.

GREAT seeing old friends again, really great!

Thanks to Mom, Dad, & J & Mel for putting together an awesome event.

Kyle....man, I love you doode. I really, really, wwwweally do! Sooooo wonderful to see you & squeeze you again!

Alan, I tried to comment on your page, but you don't have me listed as a friend, so I was rejeeeeeeeeected. Boo-hoo! Love that smile of yours.

Stacy, tried finding you on myspace, no luck....wahhhhhhhhhhh! Anyone know how to get in touch with him?

Ryan....holy cow, where did that guy come from? Wheeeeeeeeeeee! Too much fun!

Kristine...best smile EVER! Next time...bring your suit...so you can take it off with us in the spa! ;-p

Dan & Chelsea...thanks for burning the HELL out of my tongue! (But your chili was delicious, & great seeing you both...Chelsea, how's your knee?)

Mike...brown chicken brown brown!

David.....he was a cutie & so helpful....helped Amber & I put our tent up. Sweetheart.

Mom, Dad....expect a package in the mail soon!

Mel, J....soooooooooo awesome seeing you guys! You both look great!

If I forgot anyone, don't take it personally! I am STILL exhausted (but happy) from my weekend excursion...
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Monday, June 12th, 2006


Time:10:06 pm.
I gotta take a few steps back.....how do you pull back when you are getting close to someone? When every quiet moment's thought is about him? I don't know that he's going to hurt me, but I sure don't want to get hurt, so I think I need to be a bit protective & back that train up....*beep*beep*beep*beep*

Got my staples taken out today. Dang, that hurt. Not nearly as bad as when they put them IN, but still....stung a bit....
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Thursday, October 27th, 2005


Time:07:18 pm.
Mood: sad.
Sometimes it really sucks to be me.....

I finally meet a guy I like. I met this guy, Chris. I was surprised how much I liked him. Hadn't liked anyone like that in a long time. We got along really well, laughed a lot, enjoyed each other's company.

I have been really sick this week, & earlier this week, he brought me dinner. I told him he didn't have to....he said, "Is it okay if I want to?" :-)

But then he started to say something about how while he found me irresistible, he didn't think we were a good match. I knew there had to be more to it than that.

Sho 'nuff.

Today he told me this girl he'd had a crush on for years but never pursued suddenly asked him out....they went out the other night, & had a good time. He said he felt if he didn't give it a chance, he would always have regrets.

I can understand that.

But it's still a damn bummer for me....
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Thursday, October 13th, 2005


Time:09:38 pm.
Mood: sad.
Today would have been my mom's 60th birthday. She died at 52.

RIP mom. Happy birthday. Tell God I said hi! I love you....
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Wednesday, September 21st, 2005


Time:09:12 pm.
I just typed a looooong venting post & then my pc crashed right before I went to hit "update." Hear that? That's the sound of my tears hitting the keyboard......*sigh*
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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005


Time:09:52 pm.
I gave a dollar to the Hurrican Katrina fund.

If you know my financial situation, you'd know that means a lot....

Felt good to me anyway....
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Time:07:29 am.
Dare I hope.....things are looking up.....*tentative smile*....
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Friday, September 2nd, 2005


Time:12:32 pm.
My ex-boyfriend, Aaron, might be taking me to a mental hospital. I am having a breakdown. Pray for me....
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Thursday, September 1st, 2005


Time:09:51 pm.
I am watching "Lilo & Stitch 2." It doesn't seem to be nearly as good as the first one, but that frickin Stitch character is ADORABLE!!!!! I want one! He's soooooo cute! And it's cool that they kept all the same characters in, that the aliens moved in with Lilo & her sister.
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Subject:Little help please!
Time:01:06 pm.
Can anyone help me with HTML codes? I particularly need how to change the font color & size....but other cool stuff would be awesome, too....many thanks if you can help!
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Sunday, August 28th, 2005


Thursday, August 25th, 2005


Time:06:19 pm.
Mood: calm.
105 degrees???? Huh???? What the hell? Actually though, I found it to be more miserable around 90 in the Caribbean cause of the humidity. I didn't even leave the house today til after 12, so it might have gotten hotter than that. I know my car was a sauna when I got into it.

The day started kinda crappy. I had to go to Van Nuys to deal with my cellphone. That was the closest Sprint repair store. I hate Van Nuys. It's such a disgusting city. It should be burned down & rebuilt. The drive over there was extremely annoying. The offramp I needed was closed. I got off at the next one, turned around, got back on the freeway going the other way, & discovered there WAS no exit that direction. So I ended up on the 170, not really knowing where I was going. I found the place, but drivers around there were PISSING me off. It was hard to find a place to park....& then I was a fish out of water in the store. Probably around 30 people in there, I was most definitely the only Caucasian person in there. But the guy who helped me was really cool. He said the connection for the charger goes bad, so I had to get a new charger with the data cable on it, since the charger slot was basically now useless. They exchange it for free, but I still had to BUY a new one for my car. What a pain in the ass. But I left there with THAT annoyance lifted. I hadn't been able to fully charge my phone in weeks....& the beeping from it charging/not charging, charging/not charging was soooooooooo annoying. So I was soooooo relieved to get that problem fixed.

Then I went to the post office to mail some earphones back to my dad. I needed some noise-canceling headphones, & he was soooo happy to find some for me on ebay...but one side of them didn't work. He wanted me to mail them back to see if he could fix them. He probably can, my dad can fix ANYTHING (except maybe a broken heart!).

Then I went for my massage with shaktim. I was really early, so I was just going to kick it in my car for a while. He ended up coming out to let his doggies pee, & I recognized him, so I went in for the massage early. It was really nice & relaxing. I felt a lot better afterwards.

My friend, Alicia, got rushed to the ER today. She is diabetic & hasn't been taking care of herself. I swear, I am gonna smack her. She KNEW her insulin had gone bad, but was too broke to get more, & too prideful to ask for help. I would prostitute myself to give her money for insulin if it meant her life. Geez. They gave her lots of insulin, & luckily she is okay now. Last Friday night, she took half a bottle of Tylenol.....I don't know what she's going through, but I am not going to allow her to self-destruct.

Why do idiots keep emailing me tasteless emails? Strangers....guys I don't know.....emailing me sexual stuff. Soooo inappropriate. Leave me alone. I am not interested in that crap. Sheesh. Do I need to crop my cleavage out of that photo? How lame is that? Have some class, people....*rolls eyes*.....
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Sunday, August 21st, 2005


Time:09:04 pm.
Mood: worried.
I just had an angel visit me. :-)

My friend, Andie. She knew I was sick today, so she asked if I needed anything to eat. I told her I needed some bread. She showed up at my house with groceries galore. I have been too broke to buy any groceries.

I felt terrible, though, cause she just had a bunch of unexpected medical expenses, but she insisted. She's very religious, & she said she needed to tithe anyway, & since she doesn't have a home church, she just as soon bless a friend with her tithe to the Lord. She did bless me. I feel very blessed. I have food. And a great friend. :-)

Hoepfully, I will be better soon. I was hoping this didn't last too long. I had to call in sick to work today, & might have to again tomorrow....just can't be perky & bounce around in this heat with a fever. But I definitely cannot AFFORD to miss these days of work....but I tend to lose my voice when I am sick, so if I press myself, I will miss even more work....*sigh*
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