Tired, tired, tired.
Tired as in sleepy. I woke up early this morning to meet with Garry. I was up late at our final dress rehearsal. So I didn't get enough sleep.
I am tired as in mentally exhausted. I can't take these money worries anymore. I really can't. I just can't handle it anymore. I don't know what to do. I have borrowed all the money I can borrow, & I am going to have to pay it all back. I have no one else to borrow from. I cannot get a job. Every job I check out doesn't work out, for one reason or another. Everyone is laying people off left & right. A friend has a friend who runs a club, & he asked him about a job for me....they just cut back. Another friend is a manager of a hotel...I asked her about a front desk job...they are cutting back, & the full time people are going part-time. My friend just got a job at Mervyns....for a whopping $6.81 an hour. That would NOT pay my bills. Not even close. I would need at LEAST $8/hr, 5 days a week! Not gonna happen...I need something that provides tips. I simply don't know what I am going to do. I just know that this can't go on much longer.
