March 9th, 2002

sexy

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I think I have put my finger on the top things that made me bummed things didn't work out with Eric (romantically).

As of recently, I have really come to like his family. They are genuinely good people. His parents are way cool, & his brother is funny...haven't met the sister yet. But it would have been cool to have gotten to know them better, & to have spent more time with them.

Eric's a genuinely good guy, too. Yes, by his own admittance, he's got some immaturity issues, & he's definitely got some baggage (hey, who doesn't?), but he's a good person. He would do anything for someone he cares about, even if they don't appreciate it. He's the kind of person I could call at 3AM, stranded on the freeway, & he'd come out to help me. Also, he's calm...it takes quite a bit to ruffle his feathers. I've always wanted a calm, rational laid-back boyfriend...since I am primarily the opposite!

I am very attracted to him. It's not his looks themselves, per se, but he has a sexiness about him. I just want to devour him when I see him. Especially when he looks at me a certain way. Very hot.

And the biggest reason? He represents "hope" for me. You have no idea how difficult it is to find men who don't drink, don't smoke, don't do drugs, etc. Ohmigosh is it hard! And he doesn't do any of that stuff (or at least, wouldn't have had alcohol around me). I never thought I'd meet a guy like that. Well, the truth is, those guys are definitely out there, but I am usually not attracted to them. And here, finally, I found a guy who doesn't do that crap, AND I was attracted to him. That's a find, to be sure.

So it bums me out, for sure, that it didn't work. Thus...the search continues. But now I know it IS possible.

Yea! :-)
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real Alice

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Ummmm....methinks it probably wasn't too smart to eat a Philly cheesesteak sandwich with lots of ketchup mixed with Lawry's seasoning salt, & greesy french fries...with a stomach ulcer. Yummy dinner...but I am paying for it now! Ouch!
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real Alice

"Side Show"

Ignore the fact that this song is sung by Simese twins, & this song fits me well...

Like a fish plucked from the ocean
Tossed into a foreign stream
Always knew that I was different
Often fled into a dream
I ignored the raging currents
Right against the tide I swam
But I floated with the question
Who will love me as I am?

Like an odd exotic creature
On display inside a zoo
Hearing children asking questions
Makes me ask some questions too
Could we bend the laws of nature?
Could a lion love a lamb?
Who could see beyond this surface?
Who will love me as I am?

Who will ever call to say I love you?
Send me flowers or a telegram?
Who could proudly stand beside me?
Who will love me as I am?

Like a clown whose tears cause laughter
Trapped inside the center ring
Even seeing smiling faces
I am lonely pondering

Who would want to join this madness?
Who would change my monogram?
Who will be part of my circus?
Who will love me as I am?

Who will ever call to say I love you?
Send me flowers or a telegram?
Who could proudly stand beside me?
Who will love me as I am?

Who could proudly stand beside me
Who will love me as I am?
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