July 9th, 2002

sad

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I MIGHT have a cool job offer coming up. I got a phone call today, but it is nothing definite yet. It would be AWESOME, but at the same time, a bit scary & stress inducing! Change is always very scary for me! I don't like change!

How I know I am hooked on my South African boy???

I see hot guys....I comment that they are hot...and my thoughts immediately go back to Alan.

I am considering going out on some dates with other guys....and not only do my thoughts go back to Alan, but I feel GUILTY for even thinking about going out with other guys.

I sure wish I definitively knew if he felt the same.

But what could we do about it even if he did? *sigh*
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