Yep. It's official. I'm an asshole.
As usual, I got too excited about something too soon. It really sucks to be someone who knows your mind so quickly. Really sucks.
Chris & I met on Friday. He had been excited to meet me for weeks. We had a great lunch, he thought I was funny & adorable, & kept saying so. He kissed me, not once, but twice (if you don't like it the first time, you sure don't do it again). He lingered outside my truck until I gave him my phone number, saying that's what he was waiting for. Asked if he could see where I go into work...was basically very interested. He mentioned wanting to come to Knott's Scary Farm to see me perform, even by himself.
Yesterday (Saturday), I sent him an email thanking him for lunch, & reminding him that if he DID want Haunt tickets, he needed to let me know THIS weekend, since I wouldn't be able to get tickets past this weekend. That was all it said. No gushing, no giggly things, just thanks & if you want tickets, let me know now. I also sent him a text message, just saying, "Wanted to see if you get text messages....thanks again for lunch." That's it. So I get home from Knott's last night, & there's an email from him (keep in mind, he has my phone number now). It says, "How did you get my phone number? Your scarin' me now." (Yes, he said "your" not "you're.") That really irritated me. He GAVE me his number, weeks ago. I never asked for it, he just gave it to me. He doesn't remember doing this? He's freaked out by a casual text message telling him "thanks?" WTF? I don't think anything I did was inappropriate, or pushy, or clingy, or scary. Do I want to be with a guy who scares that easily? He's 33! No young pup! So I forwarded him HIS email in which he sent me his phone number, & said something like, "You get that scared from a text message? Methinks you scare easily. Didn't mean to scare you. Have a good week." Sheesh. If I had said something like, "Gee, I can't wait to see you again, I REALLY like you," or something along those lines, I would understand. And why didn't he just respond directly back to the TM, or call me? The whole thing is odd. Oh well. Unless I hear back from him an apology for thinking I went searching for his phone number when he GAVE it to me, & he chills out a bit about that, this one is over before it starts. That's a shame, too, because I kinda dug this guy. I definitely saw some potential. And no, I wasn't "rushing" things, because I am still planning (hoping) to meet Marcus, & am also still interested in this guy at work....so I obviously wasn't about to jump into something serious or exclusive with Chris. Just interested....that's all.
Speaking of Marcus & Gary....Like I said, Marcus called yesterday to see if I wanted to do something this weekend, but didn't leave a number, & said he'd call back. But he hasn't called back yet. I couldn't have possibly scared HIM off yet. He's the one who asked ME for my number, & I haven't contacted him at all (never mind the fact that I can't). If he wanted to do something this weekend....well, the weekend is essentially over. Seems like he would have called back by now. It's putting it mildly to say that men confuse the HELL out of me.
Now there's Gary....he & I definitely have an attraction thing going on. I spoke to him for a while before leaving work last night. He said, "You're going to get me in trouble." I said, "How would I do that?" And he said, "Because I don't know where this thing is going, & I shouldn't be complicating things." "This thing" is that he's dating an old friend, a girl who JUST broke off an engagement to another man. They just started kinda seeing each other, & he's not sure how he feels about it. Throw me into the mix, where there's obvious attraction...."trouble." He's not really the type of guy whom I'd normally find myself attracted to...so I was pretty surprised, myself.
Yeah...like I need this man drama when I can't even pay my bills. *sigh*