December 9th, 2002

real Alice

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Why is my head so itchy? I even used Neutrogena T-Gel shampoo today...and it's STILL itchy. I normally have dry scalp, but it's a lot worse in the winter....and I am just dyin' here. *scratching*
real Alice

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I did something really stupid (unintentionally), & I am truly paying the price.

I ended my pack of birth control pills...and instead of waiting til the following Sunday to start the new pack, I started the new pack right away. YOIKS! So my body is allllll screwed up. This is actually what doctors have women do if they are going to get their period during their honeymoon, because it stops your period. I never got it this month. That's the plus side....

The down side? I have had the joy of having my tig bitties be sore for about 3 weeks straight now...yowwwie. Enough. I hope I never do this again.
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real Alice

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I'm a posting fool tonight.

What's the deal with Val Kilmer? He looks AWFUL in those new commercials (for Fuji digital cameras, I think). I mean, I guess he looks okay, but his hair looks horrible! Who in the HELL let him do a commercial with his hair looking like that?
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frustrated

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This is a crock. I am seriously starting to get irritated.

I can't get well. I don't understand it. I am eating okay. I am getting enough sleep MOST nights.

Felt odd yesterday....really drained & really jumpy. Like Mike would come up behind me & I would jump 10 feet. Thought it was all just cause of the stuff that happened with my stomach Friday night (explosive diarrhea), & maybe not enough sleep Saturday night.

Woke up this morning with a horrible headache (went to bed with it, too), am running a fever again, & a friend just called & said I sounded congested. She said, "Are you sick?" And I thought, "AGAIN?!?!?!?" When I take a deep breath, my lungs hurt. I have been waking up with a lot of mucus in my throat...really nasty. I think tons of mucus has settled in my lungs. This isn't good.

This isn't good at all. I swear, at this rate, I'm gonna end up in the hospital.
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real Alice

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I had a great ride to work today.

Called my dad to ask his advice on whether I should go to my doctor or the ER again. He told me to go to my doctor (the ER doesn't care about things like colds/flus), & demand a chest X-ray & bloodwork. I think I have walking pneumonia. Anyway....I call to make an appointment with my doctor...and my account is red-flagged since it's delinquent. I can't pay the bill. It's $106....I don't have it. So I can't be seen. I could be & probably am seriously ill (6 weeks of fever is NOT normal, & now I am having fairly serious chest pain & trouble breathing), & can't be seen.

I am calling the collection agency tomorrow to see if I can send them $5 just to make the account current, & send them the balance in January, hopefully. I NEED to see the doctor, & get some tests done. This is ridiculous. No one likes to lose their voice, but when you make a living with your voice & it keeps coming & going, that is NOT good. The chest pain, fever, headaches (I would assume from the fever), light-headedness, & exhaustion is NO fun....and 6 weeks of it is ENOUGH.

So I start bawling in the car. It's hard to drive when you are sobbing. And I always wonder what people will think when they look in the car. I just kept saying, "No more, God....no more....no more, God....enough....enough....no more...." I can't take anymore. Stick a fork in me, I'm done. *sigh*

Thanks for all those who wish they could help me. More than that, I wish I could help my lame self. But your generous hearts mean a lot to me. Everything happens for a reason....there's some reason I am suffering...some reason I am broke...some reason I am so sick & not getting better....etc...just who knows what those reasons are???
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